Let me start over…
I’m a mom of three boys. (You can guess what that’s been like) and a wife to a whole husband (high school sweethearts and all that). I stay laughing. I stay on my toes. I also stay pulled in six different directions at all times.
So when I say that I get having to do all the shit for everyone. Know, I’ve been there. I’m still there. And I also know the one f*cking thing that actually supports me through it and in it and past it… is a strong Black sisterhood full of women who understood the plight and therefore, could relate. Without the postured Black women in my life, I wouldn’t be who I am today.
We’ve all been n a place where you have to put on the armor of being the Strong Black Woman. Hell, I’ve been the only Black woman in a sea full of white faces at some of the hardest moments in my life.
And each time, it enlightened me a little more as to what true support looks like when we face those moments.
In 2015, I was fresh fish at another Federal agency when I got the call that my Mom passed. Literally in the office when I got the news. But I was six months into the job and couldn’t dare let my guard down to cry or mourn or do anything else but get shit done like it was any other day.
My Mom was my rock. She was there when I left for the army. She had my back when I transitioned back into civilian life. She sat me down with the hard and good conversations right before I walked down the aisle.
She’s the person who taught me point blank that Black women don’t have to be in competition with each other. And that our supportive relationships are stronger than the side-eye stereotype society wants us to have.
In 2020, my Dad passed away, and again, I found myself in a group setting without a community. He passed away on the weekend, and I was right back online for work bright and f*cking early Monday morning.
And don’t get me started when my nephew was murdered. I mean, what the hell am I supposed to say to my “people” then? “My nephew was killed”? Please, all I’d hear is about how it’s a shame this is so common in the inner city.
My point is this… I didn’t have a community where I could be myself. I had to strap on my armor and show up as the hard worker they perceived me to be. Because ya know what? That was part of my identity then. And if I’m being honest, it still is a little.
But you know what I did have? I had a girlfriend who was there. Just like my Mom taught me, I had this sisterhood that allowed me to put things down in front of her. I could call on her at any time. Literally ANY time. Without her making judgments that white corporate culture will make under their breaths in the worst moments. And without her thinking I was leaving her behind when I found success.
She was there, through it all. Warm and fuzzy and real and raw.
She was my everything I didn’t have with anyone else.
It started with my Mom. It branched into my friendships. And now that sisterhood is spilling out into your hands, too. If, that is, you’re up for that.
And then you’ve got family.
You know, the three children, the whole husband, and a calendar full of to-do lists to make sure you get the right brand of cereal in the pantry at all times, that the dogs go on a walk twice a day, and that dinner only takes 30 minutes because you know each kid will eat for an hour without any complaints on a good day. And shit, your second kid has basketball this afternoon and your firstborn just joined started college. We’ll call this piece of life: Piece B.
So you take the thing you love and say “later.”
You know, when the time is right. When it’s calm enough. When things settle.
Sis, if you’re waiting on that, you’ll be waiting your whole damn life.
I’m not telling you that you should go quit your full-time gig that’s paying your way to pave your future. But what I am saying is this: If you need to hold onto something that keeps sustainability, hold onto it. This isn’t an all-or-nothing deal. This is a come as you are to a space that allows you to be creative, enjoy yourself, and explore the possibilities of what the hell you want to do because we’ve got your back.
Now is the time for what you love. Now is the time to build a legacy. Now is the time that you take A and B and you feed in C so that the life you’re living now is the LIFE YOU WANNA F*CKING LIVE.
"If everyone is moving forward together, then success takes care of itself."
- HENRY FORD